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Thursday, February 2nd, 2006
11:53 am
Nathan is so perfect.
He came into work the other night, with no other reason than to just see me and give me a kiss, then he left. He told me later I made him feel better.
Then last night he came to my house. He pushed my hair out of my face and when I pushed it back he was like, "NOOO," and I said, "What?" rooiewuoeij "Because you're beautiful Sebrina, everyone should look at you."
AND I WAS LIKE AHHH I DON'T WANT TO GET HURT BY YOU, FUCKER.

And now I'm thinking, like.. he's so amazing. So sweet.
But do we really have that vital connection needed for two people to last in a relationship? I'm not sure. I love being with him and spenidng time with him, but he intimidates me so much. I don't feel like myself around him.
Maybe if I give it a while I will slowly open up.

Outside of work, I think maybe I would be described as obnoxious sometimes. Loud.
At work, I'm like this timid little creature. Even with Nathan.
I need to think about shtuff and ishk.
Tuesday, January 31st, 2006
10:08 am
Nathan is my boyfriend. My man chowder. My ness. My zen.
Happiness.
Friday, January 27th, 2006
8:22 am
Fucking yeah. I need to become more obsessed with LJ and less with Myspace.

Nathan and I. Are going on a date. Tonight.
We will see what happens. (Sex.)

Passssssporrrrt. Woot. I will get it today. Or apply for it.

Food.das aisohdfahsdfj.
Wednesday, January 25th, 2006
12:54 pm
I hate being sick. I hate my body for letting this happen.
No one ever calls me anymore.

My mom has been such a bitch lately. Holy fuck. I want to move out. Soon.

I baked 938479587398 things last night. I hope everyone that eats that shit gets sick and dies. Ugh.
Wednesday, December 14th, 2005
2:44 pm
My pocket is full of M&M's.
I need a fake boyfriend.
Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
5:11 pm
Wednesday, November 23rd, 2005
5:00 pm
MY FUCKING MYSPACE HAS BEEN DOWN ALL FUCKING DAY AND NOONE ELSE'S HAS. FUCK.
I know this because I logged into Kristine's account.
One of these days she might change her password.
Friday, November 18th, 2005
12:49 pm
I hate looking back on my past. I am not what I used to be. I wish people would quit holding that bullshit against me. I've grown up, holy fuck. Give me a fucking break.

I loved what Colton used to be, not what he's become. I don't think that we will ever be again, and I don't know if that is wonderful or horrible.
I should focus on other things, anyway. Things that are more important.
Ryan has kind of helped me alot with everything. He doesn't like, console me or anything, it just helps to talk to someone and forget about everything. He's kind of my escape.

Chuck E. Cheese's is beautiful. I hate and love working all at once. I think it might last. I hope.

That's really all I suppose. Why is life so lame?
Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
11:31 am
Nicole sucks money out of me more then she sucks my vagina... and I think we should even things out, mmk?

Kristine is mondo-man typer right next to me. I will finish my entry before she does because THIS IS COMPETITION.

I will spend the night at her house tonight. And probably tomorrow. Hopefully she will put out (even though Adam is going to be there.) We can keep the moans hushed, I'll go slow, baby, I promise.

I have on and off feelings for this guy Nathan that I work with. He is so fucking funny and cute, but at the same time it's so impossible to imagine us as like... anything. Apparently he wants to lick my balls, too, but I don't really know if I believe that. For some reason it's easier to imagine him with a man, or like.... a stuffed animal. hmm.
I guess Andy tickles my fancy a little, too. We'll see what that brings.

KRISTINE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. hahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaahah
Let me touch 'em. Suck on them. Mmmmm licky. Ay, Ay, AY. Yes ma'am.

I think Arron is a scorpio.

Damnit Kristine won the competition.
Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
12:16 pm
I got sweet, delicious sleep last night. I missed it. I almost forgot it existed.
I also finished my proposal. I feel so much better about that now.

I'm so hungry.
Friday, October 28th, 2005
12:34 pm
I should really hold back from all of this crazy stalking of Colton.
I found thet bitches myspace. I found it and it hurt so bad looking at her. I didn't think it would, but it did. I wanted to break the computer screen. I wanted to tear that shit out of the wall and throw it out the window.
I'm willing to give up so much, so fucking much, and he can't even put down the bottle. Oh yeah, that's love, though? He loves me SO MUCH. We simply MUST be soulmates.
I bet he held her last night. I bet he carressed her. I bet she had goosebumps from his breath on the back of her neck.
That or he threw up all over her... I can only hope.

I wish he would just tell me he didn't love me. I wish he could just spit it out instead of giving me these false hopes. It would make it so much easier to give him up.

I know I said I din't want to be with him. But I did. I do. So bad.
I want to be the only one, and I almost don't even understand why.

I've forgiven him for everything. I'm his fucking doormat.
I wish I would have just gone along with the "Louis" sceneraio. Given him a taste of his own medicine.
Every time he cries over me it's like sweet, sweet revenge. It's almost sadistic how I want him to mourn over me.

Holy shit I miss Davan. His birthday is Sunday.
Thursday, October 27th, 2005
10:56 am
I have my ups and my downs, but for the most part life is my big, giant lollipop. I will lick it and suck on it and savor the sweet, sweet flavor. And my mouth will (hopefully) turn blue and unnatural.

He knows it's her or me. I hope it kills him.
He cried over Louis, and that makes me smile. It makes every little cell in my body vibrate and chuckle.

Poor Trinity is sick because some stupid bitch gave her jerky. Fucking cunt.
Monday, October 24th, 2005
2:34 pm
I want to move to Mexico.
I kind of figured that the constant horny old Mexican pick-up lines would get annoying, but really it turned out to be pretty funny. It made me chuckle a little.

I bought Nicole a pipe and now she is obsessed with becoming a stoner. And that's okay, as long as I don't have to deal with her annoying stoned ass when I am sober. After my paycheck this week I will hopefully not have to worry about that.

I want to have a kegger, but I have no location available to me. If someone knows of somewhere that I can have a party, please call me and give me le heads up. 808-0979. Gratis.

I'm only half-obsessed with Colton now. I know he's there, I know he loves me, and I know he'll hold me when I need him to. That's all I want from him. I have let him go as much as I can for now, and I have partially accepted that there will be other girls. The golf-ball sized hicky only made me twitch a little, which is surprising, considering I can be one of the most psychobitch crazy posessive ex-girlfriends ever.

Oh, yeah, I accidentally ran over a pedestrian when I was driving Nicole's car. I kept driving, I hope that person isn't dead. The blood was kind of hard to wash off.
Wednesday, October 12th, 2005
12:56 pm
Woot.
I masturbated so fucking much yesterday while Nicole was gone. Once while Kristine was on the phone... maybe twice.
Then I slept. And talked to Colton. And watched porno. And masturbated, then ate, then slept. Then woke up at 12:30 and danced and laughed and worked on my excercise bike and folded clothes and slept again.
That's what Colton does to me.

HEADLIGHT IS THE BEST CAT EVER. I love her. She likes to lick my eyelid sometimes. So do the other cats. It's kind of wierd.

I'm going to fucking Mexico. RAD.
Puerto Penasco, or "Rocky Point"

Always a spectacle, it's a public show
Unimpressed so it's time that I let you go.

I taught myself how to snort and now I have a headache from it.

I'm out

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Current Mood: hungry
Monday, October 10th, 2005
11:48 am
Have you ever looked in the mirror and thought to yourself that you never, ever want see yourself again? Not because you feel ugly, but because you're so disgusted with yourself and the person you've become.
I've felt this way for a while now. Actually, exactly a month from yesterday.

I don't know what to say about my life anymore.

There is this one girl though, the best friend I've ever had. The girl that constantly reminds me of the person I shouldn't be. The girl that twitches when I wrap a string around my finger. The girl that has and probably will always be there for me.

...I don't think I replaced anyone.
When you think about it, there was a huge series of events leading up to this. But she sees it differently. And there is no arguing about it, because it's already happened.

I don't want to lose it, either.
I HATE being remeinded of how shitty of a person I am. I fucking hate it so much.
Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
4:30 pm
Fuck. I hate livejournal now.

No, I'm not over that boy. I'm obsessed and no longer in denial.
I don't want to give up until I get closure.

Since I am a genious I have made up a simple equation. More parties/outgoingness=more drama. Forever.

However, tomorrow I am going to Funtastics to kill (or get killed) at Laser Tag. And Thursday I get paid.

Is it possible for life to get better and worse at the same time? That's exactly what's happening to me. I guess I have hope. Quite a bit of it.

I'm afraid to get a car becuase of the huge possibility that I may run over someone intentionally. I think the rest of the world should be afraid, also.

I gave away me Spatula. He is happy now.
Monday, September 12th, 2005
7:44 pm
Holy Fucking shit Myspace is down and I am going to shoot myself.
Fuck.
Who am I without Myspace?
Nobody.
Goddamnit nobody.
2:38 pm
I'm slowly getting more and more over Colton.
Thangs I have done to reach this path of righteousness:
1. Had sex with Bryan from A Void again (That guy is so good for my ego)
2. Gotten drunk and jumped on a few beds
3. Met (and hit on) many, many guys that tickle my fancy
4. Foodstamps= more love than I could ever feel for any human being
5. Taken out my aggression on the flies that flutter around/ land on my face
6. I GOT A FUCKING JOB (Chuck E. Cheese's) shweet
7. 70's mix CD rocks in my pants
8. I just got a 2 pack of the best Altoids in the world
9. Yes, Kristine, the FATA CD is quite beautiful and delicious
10. I think I should mention Bryan again, he is beautiful
11. Trading belt buckles with my love (Bryan) because this one is just so much better
12. Started wearing the Iron Cross that Davan gave me again, I will never be over that boy.
13. Thick Eyeliner= Slightly more confidence

I should probably start masturbating again, too. Hmm


Gracias.
Denada.

Current Mood: enthralled
Monday, September 5th, 2005
10:01 am
I don't EVER do this, so please, let's not be too critical, mmk?

Today is the last you will see my smiling face
Tonight I bleed and long for your embrace
Beginning to end, your bottle runs dry
Sobering efforts now lead to goodbye

You left your knife in my door
(You left your shadow at my side)
You're coming back for more
(Now that my love is denied)

Far from perfection, your ego punctures my heart
Faking emotion because you tore us apart
You locked our lips together in vanity
I swallow my pride now that you hold the key

You left your knife in my door
(You left your shadow at my side)
You're coming back for more
(Now that my love is denied)

Predictions lead to deceptions, hidden behind your mask
Bonded for life (At least I laugh last)
Attention crazed, your words shed my tears
You've killed me again to impress your peers


Those of you who don't comprehend- Boyfriend and I broke up.

Current Mood: predatory
Thursday, September 1st, 2005
12:59 pm
Today I will interview at Chuckie Cheese and own the place with my beautiful self. I will spread my legs wide and take in all of the energetic children that I can possibly handle.

Holy shit, man.
Today's been pretty shitty.


Colton may fuck up alot in our relationship, but that doesn't change the fact that he is the most amazing, beautiful thing that has ever happened to me.
Yes, he fucking cheated on me, and it will be a while until our relationship heals, but eventually everything will be perfect again.
I'm most likely going to move in with him.
And I am so excited.

I hope I get this job. I need it desperately.


I'm dying my hair back to red once I get money to do it profesionally.


I need to take pictures soon when I'm not so gross.
I will. I WILL.
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